From the valley of the shadow...

I'm back after a very sad time in my life. My best friend and lover died on Feb 6. Numbness is first, then the days carry me like a gentle stream away from that day. There is much work to do to box up the remnants of a life. I am in the process of sorting pictures, clothes, personal files, etc. He had his house and I had mine 20 miles apart for 18 years, until this last year when he came to live with me while fighting a futile battle with cancer. It was a rare cancer that does not respond to chemo and there wasn't anything the doctors could do although they tried. I was blessed to have him in my life and he taught me so much about love and friendship and I taught him as well. At least at the end he told me I had enriched his life in ways I didn't even know.

I look forward to days in the garden, always very healing and relaxing.

I have lost weight, about 10 pounds but that is just because I don't have any appetite and there is always this upset feeling in my stomach. This is just a temporary thing and probably not very healthy.